I haven't posted in a long time. I'm slowly beginning to dislike this layout. Boring. Hahaha ... it happens all the time where I enjoy it like a new toy and then it needs an upgrade. Soon ... soon it shall have its upgrade.
First semester of my third college year is over!! And I am pretty darn glad. But then I am frustrated at the idea of fighting for classes next semester. I'm going to sit in on as many classes as I can. Hopefully get some ... if not ... just gotta keep trying. Four years to graduate is impossible in this day and age ... especially in California. YUCK! Opening my etsy soon. So ... gonna go work on that now. This post sucks. Bye.
I found a quote that i quite like:
Art is like masturbation. It is selfish and introverted and done for you and you alone. Design is like sex. There is someone else involved, their needs are just as important as your own, and if everything goes right, both parties are happy in the end.
It is time that I take every opportunity I can to, I guess, release my creative side.
I have been interested in multiple art contests here and there, but never actually tried to enter. After much consideration, I feel as though even though I think my stuff is not good enough, I should still try. I'll never know unless I try right? Also, it's good practice.
As of lately, I am really enjoying sketchbooks. No matter how crappy my idea may be, I need to draw it down. I can't just automatically be good without the practice. Practice practice practice.
This first contest I'm doing is a big nail biter. I already sent a few entries, but I'm getting that "I'm not good enough" vibe from myself. My boyfriend says it's because you are your own worst critic. True, but I still get wrapped up in negative thoughts. In this contest you take this website's logo and recreate it out of real life materials. The contest ends near midnight this Thursday meaning I have a couple more days to create more ideas. Winners are announced on the 10th and I hear they may give stuff to honorable mention type dealies. We'll see what happens. I hate waiting. D: I mainly joined the contest because the grand prize winner gets a MACBOOK PRO!!!! That's something I really want as I hear Macs are great for art.
Other than that, looking out for other contests to try. But yeah ... gotta be willing to put myself out there.
On Mondays, I go to BART, go to class, stay over at my old roommate's house because I do not want to BART at 10pm, have my afternoon class on Tuesday, BART home, catch a ride home with my sister.
Being stupid for a quick moment, I left my phone at home this Monday. It made me do a lot of thinking and a lot of "hey ... remember your damn phone" moments to myself.
One: It is pretty bad to forget a phone when you need to keep in contact with people you are planning to pick you up so you do not get stranded. I usually call/text my friend to make sure I am coming over and to inform her of when I am out of class so she can come pick me up to go to her house cause walking at night is not safe. Of course. And then getting a ride home with my sister is the other thing. It is all about keeping contact.
Two: I do not like bothering people for their phone. I mean ... most college students have one and what is so wrong about asking for a phone call? I don't know. I guess I'm scared they will think I'm trying to jack their phone. But people were very nice enough to lend me their phones which I am grateful for.
Three: I don't know if it is for everyone else, but when I'm in a relationship, I like to chat with my significant other every once in a while and without my phone it is pretty difficult to do that. Even though my friend's phone is available, I don't like to constantly use it cause I should have my own to use. Not being able to talk to him ... I felt like I was lacking something and that our communication wasn't there. After all, relationships are all about communicating, no matter what kind of relationship. All require communication.
I guess that's what I'm trying to get to. Out of all this rambling it's just that ... it's weird to not have my phone at hand. I feel naked and in a way helpless in which I can't use my own tiny electronic to reach people I need and want to reach. It's weird. :
It's quite weird to think that I am already on my third year of college. Honestly, it doesn't seem like two years, or four semesters have gone by. Time flies by too fast and I am not able to acknowledge it fast enough. By the time the fun is all gone, I ask myself, why did I waste time? I was able to work out and take a class over the summer, but did not obtain a job nor start up my etsy account. I am still stuck on figuring a card to print out along with the toys that get sold.
Today was the first day of instruction at my school and not a lot happened. I only have one class to attend to, so you can imagine that BARTing for an hour to get there for on measly 1 hour and 30 minutes class is barely anything with the hour of BARTing back. Like my mom and sister said, it's a waste, but it's still cheaper than living out there. With budget cuts, I can't get the dream schedule I would like to have.
So far, I am already flustered about classes. There is one class in particular that I desperately need to get further in the new major I am attempting to get into (Visual Communications, a.k.a Graphics Design) and the professor is e-mailing the students that we must be Juniors to take this class. But in a previous e-mail, they stated that if we are Sophomores that only need a couple of classes to become Juniors, then that's okay. I hope her statement on that stays, but I will not know until next Monday due to the awkward days of my college.
It sucks to know I'm only a few units away from being in the category of Junior. Those measley units go a long way. Makes me wish I could go back and do things over so I was actually a Junior. It's the little things that matter. The little things ...
Besides that, my only complaint is the pain of BARTing. Never is it fun. Maybe if I had a friend that BARTed with me. But ... nope.
I've been out and about. Here and there. A month is left in the summer, and although I have been working out and going to school like I planned, I still have yet to obtain a damn job. Fail to the max. About a month is left and I need to do something about that. I'm still applying, but next to that, I am starting my own shop to sell my plush creations. So far, I have the name down, but now I need to create my products. I am busy doing that so, I do hope I get a job and that once I list my plushies, people will like them and purchase.
Just felt like drawing something since I haven't in a long time.
Besides that drawing, I have made two different duct tape wallets!! I shall soon take pictures of them and upload them and show you how amazing duct tape truly is!! MUAHAHA!!
Anyway, it has been a long time since I've been in the dark room and being in there makes me very enthusiastic! I just can't help but want to take pictures of all my friends and print wonderful photos of them! Or just explore the beauty of nature and take shots of it. The look of traditional black and white photo puts me at ease because it gives photos such a classic and beautiful feel. Just can't help but sigh and think, wow ... I really missed producing my own photos.